Tuesday 17 June 2014

Just an Update.


IT'S EXAM TIME! 

The stress is out of control right now in the world of Amelia. These are my first exams ever and I am finding it really stressful. I am the kind of person that can work really well when I apply myself but the problem is I get distracted VERY EASILY. Long story short, last night I had a major breakdown... I sat at my desk, with all my books on my lap ready to do revision then realized there was no room on my desk to study. I also found out that we were having a house inspection and that I had to clean my room. Now I understand that these a minor things that can be fixed quickly but I don't do well with stress and so the tears began. I went and sat outside on our big freezer and cried for about half an hour, my thoughts were that I can't do this, I don't know what I'm doing and that I am a failure... Dramatic much? I couldn't help these feelings though. I walked  back inside and mum saw me, called me over to her, hugged me and said "don't let this beat you, you can do this, just focus.' It calmed me down a bit and I cleaned my desk up, wrote a list of what I needed to study and began working my way down the list. So that was my night yesterday. On the bright side before any of this had happened I had gone to see my amazing as anything boyfriend. He had bought me chocolates as just a little surprise and so when I was freaking out I had chocolate to shove in my mouth. :P Thank heaven for giving me this amazing man. <3 (I know, I know teen love haha) I can't help wondering if I'm the only one who freaked out like this, does it happen to other people? The threeexams I am most nervous for are English, Science and Food Tech. It's not that I am terrible at these subjects, I just think I will struggle to retain the amount of information that I need for these exams. My exams will go for an hour and fourty five minutes, so that's gonna be tons of fun.. I'm nervous but I dont think I will fail anything. We also found out our subjects for next semester and I have: Math Methods, English, Chemistry/Physics, Japanese, Sport and History. It's not terrible but I am dreading Japanese. Japanese is compulsory for at least a semester in year 10 yet I failed it at the end of year 9 for I don't expect o do well in that at all. When I get older I want to either be a high school math teacher or an accountant, so as long as I do well in maths I should be fine.

Anyways, in other news I am currently doing an airbrushing certificate II course and it is amazing! We are currently working on an A1 sized black and white portrait of Angelina Jolie and then we are learning how to airbrush on t-shirts which is going to be wicked! Previously I have airbrushed a few different artworks, below is A airbrushed painting of Eddie from the band Live (this was part of our course and I didn't choose this artwork myself. I have also airbrushed batman on an A4 sheet of paper (also part of the course but I love it) and I have airbrushed on a canvas a stencil street art style image of Channing Tatum and I love it! The Channing was a artwork I did myself when I had spare time in classes. 



 Just a fun fact about me: I am a Math, Science, Art kinda girl and not at all and English, History, Music person at all.

Im trying to figure out what else has been happening in my life.. OH! ~Prepare for mini rant!~ So there is this girl and I really really REALLY just want to give her a piece of my mind. She is the kinda person that does things just to irritate or anger someone else on purpose. Aka a b*tch. We all know this person, a person who doesn't give a sh*t about anyone else and treats everyone like crap 90% of the time. Usually I would say something to this person but for reasons I can't share that's not really an option, it would cause waaay too much drama. I just want to let everyone know that if you're doing this, it's not cool and you should cut it out because all that's gonna happen is you're going to loose friends. You cant say something rude to someone and then when the respond with something rude be all surprise and butt hurt about it. Me and one of my friends like to call this person princess because she acts like she can do whatever she wants but as soon as it happens to her she sulks and acts like a stuck up princess... Okay rant over...



I really should be revising right now because I am in my food technology class but blog! 

Did anybody attend E3 or see any footage online? I was watching SourceFedNerd (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCuCLhzmx0AGnsViXF0Q44tg) cover it and I am totally excited for Sims 4, Far Cry 3, Yoshi's Woolly World and The Master Chief Collection! I am a Xbox lover and so I spend many weekends and weekdays playing Grand Theft Auto 5, Halo Reach, Left for Dead 2, Fable 2, CoD Black Ops 2 and so many more! Love it! One of the best things ever is having a bunch of friends over and eating junk food, listening to music and playing video games. Sounds like an amazing night to me. Last weekend I went to a gathering at one of my mates house. Her, myself and six of the boys literally spent the weekend playing Halo 3, Black Ops 2 and League of Legends and it was great. Some of us didn't even sleep :P I slept for two hours myself. Also, a word of warning: Don't have a sculling compertition with your friend and see who can drink a 600ml energy drink first. It's painful.. 

I've started to somewhat plan tattoos for when I'm older. I was talking to my friend last night and asked him about if he wants a tattoo and then he asked me and we just had a conversation about it. The two tattoo's that I want are kinda 'stereotypical' girl tattoos but the have meaning for me. I want hope written in a fancy script on my left wrist and I want lyrics on the right side of my rib cage, kinda on the side just under boob region. I just think the rib cage tattoo script looks awesome and I love music so yeah. 

Well Im off, hopefully I'll post a bit more in these holidays.

You are what you love, not who loves you.
~ Amelia Jane ~




1 comment:

  1. <3 A lot of people feel that way about exams. I know I did! It's not just you, you're not alone in this little sis <3 xoxox

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